Monday, January 17, 2011

Loss

I haven't posted in a while since there has been a lot going on. Life is in session. My running has been half assed. I missed 2 planned runs this week and I am kind of in that uncaring mode right now.

I turned into a contractor at my old job when I decided to stay home with Jesse. So I have been blessed with the ability to work from home. My work went on a new payment program for all vendors (which I am now considered), where they pay vendors 90 days out. I agreed to it and budgeted for it. It has been well over 4 months now and they are behind (past 90 days) on 4 of my invoices. I have called, emailed, and finally told them I was unable to work for them unless they caught up 100%, and still nothing. So last Friday was my last day with them, after this even if they caught up, I have no plans on going back. The only reason I am talking about this on my blog - which has more to do with training - is that it is effecting my training. My heart is broken, I have been with them for over 5 years and it feels like a major loss for me. I have other ventures and things to do, but I am still mourning a major loss.

My favorite thing to do when I am upset is watch TV and eat. However, seeking out the new me and this new way of life, I will see what happens when I stay on track for one day.

Any advice on what you when you are upset would be appreciated.

Monday, January 3, 2011

Doing It

This would have been a perfect Christmas picture....had we taken it before Christmas!! Story of my life.



The past 2 days I have been still in holiday mode, so nothing really officially started until today.

Yup, the goals are in motion. I ran 3 miles on the treadmill this morning (took me 40 minutes again??). I have been eating fairly good today with the exception of sunflower seed butter and chocolate chip toast I ate for a snack (man it was good). Since I operate in girl math, the Ezekiel bread cancelled out the chocolate chips and since it was sunflower seed butter that makes it "healthy." Progress, not perfection. I am focusing on running right now and getting my mileage back up - once I do, I will more seriously address my food. I am definitely ready to be back to training though.