Wednesday, August 18, 2010


So ok, I have no patience. I have never really had patience in any area of my life. When I was working the girls would tell me, "You just wait till you have kids." I am...still no patience. I can remember a time when I was like 16/17 and I started playing pool, I would make my friend "practice" with me as if I was one day going to be some major pool competitor. That dream died out after a few weeks of learning that I was just not the expert I thought I was going to be right then and there. There was also the time that I was "Weight Watcher" girl, I dreamed that I would lose tons of weight and become the next spokesperson. I practically memorized the point values for every food. I took a sharpie marker out and marked every item of food with the point value. I didn't lose weight quick enough, so that went out the window too.

Now I am aspiring to be a runner. I have been reading every book I can get my hands on, blog that I can find, and Googling every running chart I can find. I know I am obsessing, but I am enjoying every minute of it. I have it in my head somewhere that I will one day win a race - be it a 5K or a marathon. Of course that is just crazy talk, but it is jingling in my head. But here I am with shin splints and some major pain in my leg that I have been icing, realizing that my body can't keep up with my aspirations. I need to slow it down and take a step back in order to move forward. I feel like my body is forcing me to back off a tad. Even though I don't want to, I need to wait. My addiction to IB Profin needs to stop and I need to take a look at what my body is telling me. I want so bad to be a great runner, but I want it all to happen now.

This marathon goal is probably the craziest goal that I have ever had in my life, that is why I love it so much. It is greater then me right now and no amount of research, obsessive training, or IB Profin is going to get me there faster. I am at the mercy of my body and what it can do. Patience is forced upon me if I would like to proceed.

Isn't it ironic that training for a marathon is going to teach me balance and moderation? Who'd a thunk!??!

1 comment:

  1. Set a goal (say Newport Harbor Heritage Run in October), find a good training plan (like Hal Higdon or Couch to 5K) and go for it! Just remember - stick to the plan!